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Apr. 23rd, 2009

Well this sucks. As my siblings know, our parets called a family meeting. What they don't know is its about me. You see, my cancer is kinda sorta worse than I let on. I kinda told them it was ten percent bigger this time than last time. It's really fifty percent bigger and likely to spread.

I'm sorry I lied. but please put yourself in my shoes for a bit. I was the one who had mom get that look in her eye, made all of you get typed, which as we all know is not fun. I'm the one that had dad get life insurance for everyone. I'm the one who sucked up all the money in my bils. I'm the one who is always the one who has to be careful. I'm 22 and have a boyfriend I'm serious with. Normal girls would have moved out four years ago. But not me. Mom gets mad whenever I so much as mention moving out.

So you can see why I wanted everyone  to think it wasn't as bad as it was. So it wouldn't be about doctors and pills and cell therapy and transplants and it spreading and tests and needles, but just chemo. The only reason I continued treatment was so I would graduate college and marry the boyfriend. I wanted to live buyt I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired because I'm sick.

Apr. 12th, 2009

HAPPY EASTER!

If you celebrate it.

If not...


HAPPY SUNDAY!


Making a quick post  before I meet Faye and the kids over at church. My mom and I have been up since dawn making dinner. We're making ham and turkey since ham is not reccomended on my diet and Mom is strict about that. A turkey for me and the picky  eaters and ham for everyone else.

Maybe I can convince the boyfriend or the kids to smuggle me some ham. I love ham.



OOC: Pretending this post is made around seven in the morning, assuming no one minds.

Apr. 9th, 2009

I hate chemo days with a fiery passion. I'm going to bed after this entry. I am so tired after Chemo, but I thought of something I want to do after I beat it, and believe me, I will beat it. It's only a matter of time.

When I beat it, I want to go to a Broadway show.

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I know I'm supposed to stay positve and keep fighting my disease, but I'm so tired and sick. Four times I threw up today. FOUR TIMES! My throat and mouth kill, as do the sores, and I'm tired of bland soup. I'm tired of needles and smiling and saying I'm feeling better when I don't. When I'm scared I'm not strong enough to beat it this time. If it wouldn't freak my family out, I just might tell them how I'm always exhausted but am doing my makeup so no one sees. On days like today, I want to curl up in a ball in the bathroom. But I can't. Because my family members are not idiots. They will figure it out if I do that.


Kai

You won't tell anyone what we talked about yesterday, will you? It will only make Mom have that look she had the last time and make everyone worry about me. They don't need that with everything they have going on. I shouldn't have even told you with everything you have going on. You have it just as hard, if not worse, than me. I'm sorry to have put all that on you.

Apr. 7th, 2009

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Apr. 6th, 2009

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The Boyfriend: The guy who she's been dating seriously for two years.

The Sisters: [info]_faye
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The Brothers: [info]ballandstick [1/5]

Apr. 2nd, 2009

Bio

Hannah was born on February 21, 1986, a cold Friday evening. But her story begins before her birth. It begins with her biological mother, Elizabeth. Elizabeth was a silly romantic girl who would follow her heart quicker than her head. Elizabeth was fifteen when she gave birth to her daughter. She'd fallen in love with a teenage boy, and they were stupid. The boy refused to marry her so her strict parents decided to send her away while pregnant with Hannah. When she gave birth, she decided to give her daughter a better life than she could. She signed away her rights to her daughter.



By the age of one, her adoption was legal and binding to the Laura and Stephen Knight. They were a couple already blessed with seven children, three daughters and four sons. She evened out the count with four daughters and four sons, making the total count a nice round ten. The count would later be added to with a little brother. She was raised knowing she was adopted and loved no differently from her siblings who were Claire and Stephen's biological children. When someone would find out she was adopted, she would usually be asked if she wanted to find her family. She would respond she had a family.



Then she got sick and was eventually diagnosed with leukemia at the ripe old age of six. She had her father track her biological family down for medical purposes, and only medical purposes. It was discovered her biological father's brother died at the age of ten from leukemia. Hannah did not. She needed a transplant badly. She felt bad hoping for one, because it meant someone had to go through tests and surgeries that she did. They had to be poked with needles that made the child not want to open her eyes until her mommy told her they were gone.



She felt bad about hoping someone would get sick and die, but that was her only chance to live. And she wanted to grow up. She wanted to grow up bad. So she hoped and prayed that she would get a transplant. She did, after a long wait while she got weaker and weaker. She had a permanent room in the hospital and she got homesick.



Finally, her doctor came in with good news. A patient in the ER was dying. He had a donor card and they were a match. She got his marrow moments after he died. She attended the funeral. After that, everything she did, she did for him too. If she felt the wind on her face, it was because of that kind man.



While she was in the hospital, she decided it would do no good to complain about it after a talk with a nurse. The nurse told her there was no point in making everyone feel as miserable as her when they were doing all they could. The nurse had a good point. Everyone knew already anyways. So she stopped complaining about it and made herself look for a gift in everyday, whether it be a new shirt, or time with her mother. Even once she was in remission, she would take the nurse out to lunch once every few weeks. The nurse, Betsy died last year. Hannah and her family attended the wake and the funeral as did many other patients who were helped by Betsy. The turnout were twenty patients and their families.




When Hannah was sick, she would take pictures of everyone and everything. She later used her allowance to buy the best cameras she could. Her bedroom is plastered with pictures she took of her loved ones. She took photography classes and she decided to be a professional photographer. She was accepted to college but then she got sick again and had to withdraw to her great disappointment. Once shes well again, she plans to go to college.



Once she was better, she discovered she had a good voice and her mother encouraged her to do voice lessons but she preferred skating. She took skating lessons and loved it. She had no talent but was passionate about it. She loved to skate and pretend she was flying far away from the doctors and needles and hospital gowns and medicine. She was shopping with her mother when she suddenly became very weak. They returned home and she laid down. But no matter how much she rested, she was always tired. She was going to call her doctor when she found out about her monthly test results. Her cancer had come back.



While she was sick the first time, she would get visits from pets. She discovered she adored dogs. When she was well enough, she would push them in wheelchairs. As she grew up, she became the towns dog walker, and she loved it. It didn't tire her out too much and she got time with dogs and she got paid for it. It was good times for everyone.

RP Sample

Hannnah Knight loved to skate. She was feeling particulary energetic today, so she decided she would skate after work. That would be her gift for today. When she first got sick, she would scowl and be bitchy to everyone. Then a nurse explained to the then six year old that life was a gift and she was wasting it. After that, Hannah didn't complain anymore. She tried to be as sunny as possible. So what if she had cancer again? She beat it before, and she would again. She had to. Every day, she tried to find at least one gift, whether it was something as simple as a butterfly or her favorite show from childhood had been on so she watched that while she recovered from chemo.



After she had dropped all the dogs off, she drove back to her house and chose a wig. When she walked the dogs, she wore a hoodie, so her head was covered. Her wig was left off, so she wouldn't have to worry when she had to chase after the dogs. It fell when she ran and then got all dirty. But when she was going to be around people and just wanted to be another person in town, she wore her wig. Hannah went up the stairs into her bedroom, and she kicked off her sneakers, and slid her jeans down her waist. She tugged her long sleeved green shirt over her head, and clad in her underthings, she went to her dresser and tugged the middle drawer open. She pulled a warm sweater over her head, and she tugged some heavy jeans over her hips. Hannah then shoved her feet back into her sneakers and grabbed her skates from her closet. She grabbed one of her wigs and carefuly set it on her head.



She went downstairs to her car and got in, and she drove to the rink. She pulled into a space and got out. She went into the girls locker room, and she made sure it was empty before she took the wig off and placed it in a locker. She tugged the hood of her sweatshirt over her head, and tightened the cords so no one could tell. She changed into her skates and went over to the rink and stepped on the ice and smiled as she skated over the ice. If she closed her eyes, it was like she was flying. Due to her closed eyes, she banged into the rail. Ow. Hopefully no one saw that!